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I Want What I Can’t Have

November21

Why is it that if I can do some­thing, I leave many projects unfin­ished and books unread?  If I can­not do some­thing, I want to keep try­ing.  Right now, I can’t get my mind of run­ning.  I am not a run­ner.  I do not run fast nor am I very good at it.  I have some sort of exer­cised induced asthma, and I can­not seem to get myself past two miles.  Yet, I keep find­ing myself want­ing to try again.

I ran (and walked) a 5K in May.  I started the Couch to 5k plan a few times.  I have never fin­ished it.  I started run­ning again this sum­mer.  I ran/walked around our block (about 1 mile per lap) twice.  I felt great after I fin­ished, but the next morn­ing I woke up with heels that were so sore I could barely walk.  I was sore and lim­ited in my exer­cise and even walk­ing for about the next 4 or 5 *weeks*!  After that, I took another hia­tus.  I can­not get run­ning out of my mind.  I never thought I would be a run­ner.  I have never thought of myself as a run­ner, but for some rea­son I want to become what I have never been.

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3 Comments to

“I Want What I Can’t Have”

  1. On November 22nd, 2009 at 3:12 am Julie Says:

    No advice, but I totally under­stand what you are talk­ing about. I am always wanting/trying to be some­thing that I’m not. I don’t know why, I do wish I could just be sat­is­fied with who I am rather than try­ing to be some­thing I am not. It is very frustrating!

  2. On November 22nd, 2009 at 3:15 pm Renee Says:

    Well, maybe you can do a com­bi­na­tion run/walk instead of all out run­ning at first. Walk five min­utes, run for one. Less stress on your joints. Also look into get­ting a great pair of run­ning sneak­ers — you might have a sup­port issue going on.

  3. On November 23rd, 2009 at 11:30 am Jason Says:

    It’s all of those Runner’s World mag­a­zines I have lay­ing around the house, isn’t it? :)