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Now That I’m 30

November12

I’m 30.  Know­ing that I had my big birth­day com­ing up, I spent a bit of time think­ing about it over the sum­mer.  What does 30 mean?  How do I feel about it?  Have I accom­plished what I’d hoped to accom­plish by 30?  Was I going to have a cri­sis about being 30?  How was I going to define my entrance into my 30’s?

When I turned 25, I had just grad­u­ated with my master’s degree in spe­cial edu­ca­tion.  I had a bit of a cri­sis over it.  For the first time in a very long time, I wasn’t going to be a stu­dent.  I didn’t have classes. I wasn’t going to be graded.   I didn’t have teach­ers.  In order to com­bat my feel­ings of angst, I decided to take a lead­er­ship class at my church.  I guess I replaced one type of school with another.  I was also a teacher, I guess I had found my com­fort zone.  :)

This sum­mer as I approached 30, I thought of clos­ing down this blog and start­ing up a now-that-I’m-30 blog.  I fig­ured I would set some goals for myself, report sev­eral times a week, and dis­tract myself until I was 31.  Then, instead of hav­ing a cri­sis, I would do those things I had long put off or found an excuse not to do.  Instead of doing that, I just didn’t.  I found things to busy myself, and I finally made a tan­gi­ble goal for myself by elim­i­nat­ing sugar from my diet from now until Thanksgiving.

Just when I was feel­ing jus­ti­fied in my com­pla­cency, I got an email.  A fab­u­lous friend of mine had com­mented on my sugar post.  This is a friend who was in my wed­ding (and I was in hers 22 weeks preg­nant with K), a friend who I think about quite often, a friend I admire greatly, and a friend I had not talked to in over a year.   I was so excited to read a com­ment from her.  I was even more excited to see she had a blog.  It struck me as a lit­tle funny that her blog is thirty things she wants to accom­plish before she’s thirty.  Hmmm…  Maybe I’m not feel­ing so great about my com­pla­cency all of a sudden.

So, Friends, I bet you can guess what will be com­ing in the next few days and weeks.  A list.  I am not nearly as ambi­tious as my friend, so I will not be cre­at­ing the blog “30 Things I Did While 30.”  I am think­ing I will be set­ting monthly goals for myself.  So far, I have this:   Octo­ber– Pro­cras­ti­nate (check)  Novem­ber– Elim­i­nate sugar and refined car­bo­hy­drates from diet (in progress).  I will keep you updated as the list con­tin­ues to grow.

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2 Comments to

“Now That I’m 30”

  1. On November 12th, 2009 at 11:56 am Rachel Says:

    I’d like to see a post about 30 things you’ve accom­plished in the past 30 years.

    Turn­ing 29 was trau­matic for me because I knew it sig­naled the end of a really good era. Yup, it did end, but so far, the 30s have been rich, just in a dif­fer­ent way. Had my first child at 31 and sec­ond at 34, so obvi­ously that has caused lots of change.

    I really want to write a bucket list and start liv­ing more inten­tion­ally. It’s amaz­ing how much time I waste on evenings and week­ends doing house­work and laun­dry. That stuff is not memorable.

  2. On November 18th, 2009 at 9:46 am Susan Says:

    Hey I’m 30 in March and I fin­ished my teacher train­ing when I was 25 too! I started doing “quar­terly” reviews where I set goals and review what progress I make but so far I’ve only done it twice in almost two years so not very quarterly.